not puntual :(

hiii
         things wer not well until now well a lil glad 2day.. last week on sunday i moved to a friends room thinking that it wud cost me less nd things wud go easy but the scenario isn't as expected although the flat was really awesome but it is too far from my office nd things are not available nearby.. so its quite tough there.. most probably i'll be moving to a nearby PG this saturday.. ya ya after changing my room i had been to Dharuhera i was chatting wid ankit thru texts i forgot the address which ankit had provided me nd landed up doing what i wud hav done wen i didn't know the address.. i roamed about the sector-6 there and there wer over 1900 homes there most of em were under construction.. its a fast developing city, as it is next to delhi.. while i was roaming about so as to catch a glimpse of Ananya several incidents happened i remembered that ankit had told me it was ___-33 but wen i reached a nearby locatin and asked for the plot  __-30 so as i could locate the nearby house instead of directly pointing to it.. it came out to be that guys house and enquired whom i was looking for i then told actually i was looking for __-33 plot hetold dat its an empty plot nd i should look for it in sector-4.. i toggled the streets of sector 4 for a while nd again started searching for her in sector 6.. i reached the extreme point wer there was a place named Neta ji Subhas Chandra Bose Chowk there wasn't any home beyond that and ananya had told me that her home is 10 mins from the bus stand, so keepin that in mind i had walked a longer distance and probability of finding her was less in that area.. so i roamed about in between.. a time nd a place came where a fat guy as ananya had told was her tenant i herad sucha guy take her name and tell you my heart was beating like as if i had seen  a ghost.. i walked nd tried searching for her for over 2 hours nd after an unsuccessful approach i returned to a friends home in delhi late at 11pm. He had prepared Chicken for me but i had left non-veg so i had to compromise with the gravy ...
i hav had two of three tests in HCL nd hav passed then the final and the deciding one is this week lets see.. GOD please help me.. hope awl comes out to be fine... nd am glad as I found ananya back in my profie nd she does come online so we are virtually connected thru internet now... ya i asked a collegue of mine to translate a few lines for me so that i could send it to prathee,,, awee the reply that i got from her was really nice.. she is like the sis tat i had always wanted.. just wish that she doesn't change much... ananya is chatting wid mee.. bbyeeee

Awl office

heyeee,,,
              i knw prathee won't find it nice to hear this yet Ankit shouted on me a lil bit.. his act was genuine. i seeked sorry nd did my part.. the thing that had actually happened was that i called up ankit and was having a casual talk and finally b4 hanging up i asked him ananya nd then he got pissed off nd told that i should not ask about her from now on.. and he too will not be saying anything abt her.. i i am that much kneen in knowing abt her then i shud ask by maself.. nyways hv six working days this week nd on sunday i hav plans nd on monday i hav to change my room.. so i'll be again damn busy this weekend.. nd next week i hav ma final assessment in the office nd then i wud be a permanent employee of hcl.. so i am looking forward to it nd hope i clear the Berlitz Assessment.. nd lets c how my weekend gets along.. hope i make the most out of it.. i think Shrishtee has left for jaipur nd Mt.Abu visit.. nothing more just the office nd the quarrel that i had had wid the gal in the office nd she was punished nd scolded as it was her fault nd everyone in our batch is troubled coz of her. the trainer has asked every1 not to talk to her.. ppl like the way i speak nd they r impressed.. gosh feels awkward..
tada.. bbyeee..

now what???

heyeee...
               i returned from jaipur after spending 5 days there. I enjoyed there a lot.. the most i enjoyed was the moment wen i got into discussions wid maasi nd the tym wen in the evening i used to go out nd used to spend a handful of time in Ananya's park.. although she wasn't there in jaipur yet i dunno y i stayed there gazing to her balcony i dunno what i was expecting or why i was doing this.. one night i was talking to ankit and i told him that this weekend i'll be going to dharuhera where she lives but i'll make sure that she doesn't see me yet i'll try catch a glimpse of her.. i asked ankit what her address was he must hav been knowing it as Aditi was his GF nd things were going gr8 bw them.. touch-wood.. on my way back to delhi wen my bus was crossing dharuhera i was peeping out of the bus and trying to locate her.. is it possible no naa.. yet i didn't want t leave any chance of not doing my part.. rest is in the hands of GOD isn't it.. i hav faith in him nd i still feel that we wud be friends once again.. yesterday was very very tiring for me..exam travel nd then full tym office.. i had paid an office colleague's exam fee as he was a frnd of mine in collg too expecting that he'll pay back.. but he has his own tales now.. fuck him.. it was a funny moment when prathee was tellin me to write neatly in da papers.. i really njoyed ma last days in jaipur.. it was the best i cud hav.. yet it cud hav been a lil more better..
ankit was tellin dat Aditi was tellin dat Ananya had some of ma belongings nd dat Aditi wantd to giv it to me ankit told dat he'll collect it from her nd giv it to me.. but i told ankit to ask her to throw it away... :(
    I am looking forward for going to Dharuhera this Sunday.. Now i feel as to be a lil more serious about my carrier yess i'll be more leaned to it now you can check it out.. how can you but yess you can feel it or rather smell it.. as i won't display it.. Ananya has deleted her Profile from facebook now how wud i be updated nd know lil things abt her??? :( the day b4 yesterday i had downloaded the song in to my cell which ananya had told me was \very nice nd yaa i too njoy it.. i hav her pic in my cell as well.. i at times look to the pic nd go weary.. aah...
take care.. ya ya shrishtee is going to jaipur tomorrow nd then she'll go places like mt.abu nd udaipur nd all.. good that she'll njoy nd hav fun ... happy for her..
bbyeee

missed out a day. m sorry.. 13-06-11

heyeee...
             i went to jaipur on saturday morning at 9.. i had my office on friday so didn't sleep properly.. was sleeping at ma mausi's home..  on sunday i studied nd slept in a finely blended manner. monday was the worst woke up at 5 studied for an hour nd half nd den had to go to the center 25 kms far away.. reached the wrong one nd then checked the admit card nd went to the correct one just 5 kms frm der.. after the exams i had to rush to jaipur nd den board a bus to delhi nd den attend the office in da evening..  but as i got out of the colllg it was damn damn hot.. you could burn yourself.. it was dat hot.. rushed to jaipur nd had lunch mausi was not home so i had to leave behind her..
while i was in jaipur .. jaipur seriously haunted me. every street nd every shop had a story to tell/... was feeling as if they were yelling nd speaking out their memories to me.. the ones specially that were attached to Ananya be it the parlour ot the ATM or the streets or the restaurants... aah how can i explain this feeling that i had undergone der... the sound of the peacock early morning that i used to hear reminded me of the time wen ananya used to sit late nights and listen to em'.. i'll write more wen i reach back to noida i am in jaipur will return on monnday.. hav exam on monday.. tada.. take care... i hav plenty to share.. sorry bbyeeee...

bitch bitten..

heyee...
             yesterday was was a day to be remembered as while i was going to meet akbar who had recently joined my office and i had my bike recently serviced so was riding it in a rash way but as i was to come out of my colony a dog happened to bite me. there were two dogs/bitches who were chasing me nd i thought i would escape if i moved my bike fast but things didn't go as expected and one of them bit me on my leg.. it was a situation in which even if u r on a camel u get bitten by a dog.. whomever i told was laughing.. i really miss ananya still no idea why. yesterday in the office also the trainer was asking to create a story nd i begun the first sentence as- once upon a time there was a girl named Ananya.. and today also while i am online i am awl the while peeping into her profile... huh.. why am i doing awl dis i wish i cud answer it nd find a perfect resolution to it..good that none of my family members know abt me writing here or else they wud hav badly nd very badly thrashed me and i wud feel very guilty.. yesterday i shouted on my mom for no reason, but today i calmed it awl nd she is good now.. Shrishtee is in the same hospital in which i was yesterday she is der to hav her bandage removed.. ankit and abhinav awl r fine dunno abt prathee.. riddhi rashi is also fiine.. feels nice to have the bike back so that i can go places with ease specially going to the office.. i lost my way everytime while i was not on my bike nd opted some public transport to reach der.. i was looking at some of the pics of ananya that she has in her profile..i was not able to blink my eyes.. aah dunno i dunn wanna say nything.. huh.. :(  
         c ya take care waiting for the weekend to come so that i can go to jaipur..

dunn hav a topic...

heyeee,,,

            the weekend was horrible as i was ill nd had had a swollen eye i was unable to open my eye on the sunday and had my office on monday so by hook or crook i had to get well so as to be able to be present in the office. by the grace of god i happened to do so nd was fine by the evening and noticed that my bike was not working on self-start nd someone had broke the indicators so i was a bit troubled got it started nd took it to the service station nd i'll be getting it back tomorrow.. it will be costing  me arnd 2000.. while i was spending my weekend at my cousins place in delhi i was accessing the net nd noticed that Ananya had uploaded a few pics of hers nd the one that was her display pic was really marvelous nd nothing could be said about it. it was that good for me.. okay i'll describe the pic in the pic ananya just one eye was completely visible nd the other one was covered by her hair nd if one noticed then that very person could notice it as well and hair was was falling perfectly it was something like as if it was taken by a professional photographer and she had her palm in front of her mouth nd nose the palm was facing the camera,,, what i did was that i placed my palm over hers on the screen .. i dunn know but i felt very pleased to do so.. i was having a feeling as if we both wer having hand in hand i just explain the feeling sorry.. but whatever it was it was nice.. i received a text from her today a few hours back she was asking her friends to update her new contact no. i wanted to call her up nd ask her to meet sometime next month.. but couldn't do so.. i feel so helpless.. i was telling Ankit, Abhinav, Pratheepa about ananya's pic but couldn't tell it to her.. i am not getting to chat to shrishtee also. she had undergone surgery and i am not regular over net so unable to chat to her.. i am not having time i am damn occupied.. hav my office again today at 8:30pm-6:30am.. i hav just that saturday nd sunday nd that too i was ill so cudn't make the most out of it.. hav to go jaipur next two weekends so gonna be occupied ... will keep u updated take care....

heyeeee...
               today is an off from office.. so i hav this saturday sunay nd monday till evening.. nd now i hav to go to office on monday 8:30 pm.. i am having trouble with my bike  an am unable to locate a proper service center.. office is going fine.. hav to study for my upcoming exams and i am not doing that fine i'll do and manage it.. not manage it exactly i'lll study nd give the exams properly.. i was in the office yesterday  so cudn't receive ny1's call.. shrishtee is going to be operated today ...  and dunno nything about ananya.. aditi is fine i wished her wishes for her completion of two years with ankit but she was sayin that to ankit that it was next month nd that i had wished her a month in advance.. had to go to a relatives place but was asleep nd was tired so cudn't do so .. lets see if i make it in the evening or not..
got to go bbyeee......

working days hav begun...

heya..
            yesterday was my first day to the office nd it was pretty tiring. signing plenty and plenty of documents by the end of the day my signatures was nowhere close to my very own signatures.. aah this document dat document...  it was really tiring just can't explain the formalities... nd today was good.. met the HR who'd be responsible for our process .. she was kinda look alike of shrishtee.. she remind me of shrishtee.. i am missing Ananya.. wish she was here nd i cud be sharing things with her.. i wud hav told her every bit the ppl , the envt , the policies the risks the terms nd conditions.. plenty and plenty of things .. aah  how to tell it awl here.. my training is going to last two months or so .. nd if i clear the exam after that then only i'd be allowed to join the floor and then only i can consider myself a an employee of HCL.. i havv to go to jaipur for my exams and they were first denying to give the leave but lets see whether or not they grant the leave.. shrishtee kept sending me offline msgs.. she'z innocent she doesn't hav a single friend whom she can trust.. its kinda responsibility that i hav that i don't hurt her.. in any mean.. ananya had updated her home town on facebook i today also was into her profile tracking the changes that she might hav made.. so that i cud gather news about her nd how she is and whats going on in her life.. i wish i'd know how she is nd whats going on her mind.. what she's thinking.. ya ya i say a dream a few days back in it aditi was saying to me that you know my elder sis likes you .. i woke up from the sleep and sat straight.. damn i woke up as i just cudn't believe it.. i was laughing in myself.. hcl isn't providing any food or nything like my precious company was doing so.. in some aspects its good and in some aspects its not and bad.. huh  i wish to work nd stick to this organization as doing so i feel that in some time i wud be given a position that wud actually matter nd wud be considered good... hope so awl turns fine nd i am given what i deserve nd long to by the grace of god..  cudn't write much hope so i'd write everything on Saturday.. bbyee for now.. c ya..